babii Boo

Just wanted to update everyone and show a picture of my babi boo whom I told you about last time. I just uploaded a photo to my computer. So check out my myspace for all the pictures from the stripp club && my cousin's 19th bday!!!!  

Been a while

So I haven't been on in a really long time. Been a pretty busy time and not really much going on. My computer broke, got a new one. So thats been pretty cool. I got the new MacBook Pro. Laptop that is pretty sweet! What else...

Oh yea, met this new guy. Well I met him in the summer and we just started hanging out again a couple weeks ago (like every chance we get) We like each other, but I dunno. I can't seem to get myself to kiss him. I'm too shy or something .I know right? Doesn't sound like patti...but maybe I really like him or something and I don't want to mess it up? I am not sure but I do like him a lot. Lets just say, its probably a huge crush but I hope something comes of it. Thats it about my love life. 

Update on Eliezer and the baby daddy drama...MY SONS DAD GOT MARRIED!!! Ahh I know right? Wow. I can't say I am not a little jealous, but I know that I woudln't want to be in her shoes. I don't want to marry him, just didn't want him to get married first, ya know? I think I need to be happy in a relationship before I can really 100 percent get over him. Hopefully this thing with Adam works out!!! But Eliezer needs to get tubes put in his ears and his dad doesn't take ear infections seriously and it pisses me off. He went to his dads this weekend and I said that he had an ear infection and to give him the medicine all weekend. I picked him up and asked if he gave him the meds and he kinda slowly said yes. Then when Eliezer got in the car I asked him and he said his dad forgot it in the car and never gave it to him once! UGHHH like seriously in order for antibiotic to work, you have to take it until the whole thing is gone. so like wtf!?!?!  But thats about it....I am off to florida in less than 2 weeks! YAY

Sorry I have not updated in a while. I have been busy with school and my computer took a pooper on me and wont let me online AT ALL. I am only surviving with internet when I am at school. And thats only during the week and I have to do my homework. But I am getting my computer cleaned off and I should be on my way soon to having more in depth updates. Sorry Melissa! haha...soon though.

Played

Guys are stupid. It's official. They do NOT realize what we can offer them. Personally, I give up. I am not going to try anymore. They can attempt to show me how they are worth my time and I will figure out if I WANT to spend my time with them. Thats what it is going to have to be. I am not one to play games. So I wont.

I was supposed to hang out with Sexi guy...I beat him in bowling so he wanted a rematch. Totally his idea, so we planned it for Saturday. He wanted to bet me a massage if he won and me a date if I won. I was down for it because I could go on another date with him because I KNEW I was going to win again. It was Saturday and I didn't hear from him for a day, so I texted him to see if plans were still on. No response. I waited and called him later at like 8. No answer. So then I called at 11 THAT night...and still no answer. So I said screw it. Wish I wouldn't have waited so long to find something else to do, but oh well. Still no call from him. And it was totally his idea for a rematch. UGh. whatever, if he had something else to do, he could've just told me or something! I would've been fine with that. FUCK GUYS!

Now...I am also pissed about another thing. I have this guy friend of mine. Well he used to be my friend. I am slightly pissed off at him because he thinks he can just be a MAJOR player of the game but he's not the best. At first I was like whatever because I didn't like his first baby moms. Then I got to talking to his new girlfriend and the mother of his baby son and I really meshed with her. We understood each other and was in the same boat. She is a real sweet girl. And after talking with her and what he's done to her. I didn't fine him attractive anymore at all. How could he do that to her? Well they got back together and I was happy for her because I knew thats what she really wanted. Well...he's just an ASS and she can do better for her and her son. He offically pissed me off today when I read her blog. UGH, I wish I fought because I would totally kick that bitches ass for you Melissa. She's fuckin nasty and everything you said about her. She doesn't get it. But karma comes back around to kick you in the ass so I hope she gets it 20x worse!!! You'll be okay. I promise. All the best ones get through it. She's just desperate and jealous cause she can't be a HOT MAMACITA like you!!! Haha I just had to vent because I was royally pissed off. Hope that baby boy of yours feels better. Call me whenever you need to vent or pour your heart out. I am here!!!

Enough for now. Quote of the day is....GUYS F'IN SUCK. SUCK A DICK BITCH!

Transferring colleges

Today I applied to transfer to Michigan State University. The counselor said I would not have a problem getting in because of my current GPA, but I had no idea I would have to write an admission essay. I suppose that is normal for any college. At least I have heard of it before. I am not the best writer so I had no idea what I was going to write about. There were three topics to choose from. I chose to talk about how my environment (family, school, work) has shaped me into the person and student that I am today. So here's my story...

“Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined”. Henry David Thoreau has inspired me to be the best that I want to be. I have always been a determined young lady and as I continue to grow into a mature woman I will always confidently look towards my successful future.

As a child, I did not have a difficult childhood; it was average. I lived with my parents in a country home with a pool and the vast wilderness behind us. I was seven when the big divide happened. My parents got a divorce but it did not affect my attitudes towards life. Even at a ripe young age, I excelled in school. I always had the great teacher recommendations and recognition as the “smart” one in the family. I was very successful in elementary school, so I assumed that high school would be a breeze. Is that enough confidence? I found myself being entered into the honors classes for every subject. I could handle it; I was strong willed. I had no idea I had a major factor about to take a dominant role in my life.

Breast cancer. I never knew those two little words could affect my life forever. At no time in my busy teenage life did I ever have the thought about a disease interrupting our lives. I was young and naïve. I looked up to my mother. She raised me and my brother alone. She was invincible: my hero. I knew she could overcome this.

As she grew sicker, she prepared us for the worst. She would talk to me about my future and my plans for life; what she hoped for me and expected of me. When you’re fifteen, you’re supposed to gossip about boys and best friends; not about your mothers impending death. Before she passed away, she was quoted in the newspaper of wanting a few things: 1) See her son graduate 2) See her daughter attend college 3) Have a grandchild.

She never got to have any of her wishes come true. Her wishes came true a little too late. I have a son and attending college full time. My mother encouraged me to pursue my goals and dreams. I know she is proud of my accomplishments. She was my rock and my survivor.

I am who I am because of my mother.

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I am still at school so I don't have any pictures of me and my mother, but I will be adding a picture of us. For now, here is some memories of highschool!

This is me driving home from school after a Senior dress up day...I was Mimi

Me and Paola in Cooking class my Junior year. I miss her.

Kyni Rae and I in Mexico. I was 4 months pregnant! (senior year)

Josh, Me, and Amanda at Ichiban our Junior year. Mmmmm it was tasty!

Jessica, Dee, and myself in Myrtle Beach...summer before senior year

One of my Senior pictures...05 baby!

A Closer Walk

So today in my bioethics class we watched the movie A Closer Walk. I knew it was a documentary about HIV/AIDS so I decided to get an energy drink so I didn't fall asleep. (that tends to happen to me with documentaries!) I figured it was one of those boring statistical movies. So I went into this movie thinking "oh great...here we go"

I didn't take my eyes off the movie for a second. I strongly encourage everybody to watch the movie. Will Smith is the narrator along with Glenn Close. I nearly cried a couple times because in the video you get to see the lives of young people, old people, Africans, Russians, Americans...how EVERYBODY is affected by the AIDS epidemic.

Did you know that HIV/AIDS is the leading cause of death in African Americans? Not murder or gang related deaths...HIV/AIDS which can be prevented with the right means...

If you would like to know more you can go to http://www.acloserwalk.org/ for more information. I strongly urge you to visit the website and check it out. Maybe even buy a movie...proceeds go to help AIDS research and victims!!! Thanks for listening!

words to live by

1) “You can give without loving, but you cannot love without giving.”

2) “Friendship is love minus sex and plus reason. Love is friendship plus sex and minus reason.”

3) “Infantile love follows the principle: 'I love because I am loved.'Mature love follows the principle: 'I am loved because I love.'Immature love says: 'I love you because I need you.'Mature love says: 'I need you because I love you.'”

4) “Love is not the dying moan of a distant violin – it is the triumphant twang of a bedspring.”

5) “So long as we are loved by others I should say that we are almost indispensable; and no man is useless while he has a friend.”

6) “Those who are faithful know only the trivial side of love: it is the faithless who know love's tragedies.”

7) "To let a fool kiss you is stupid. To let a kiss fool you is worse."

I guess you could say that I was feeling sentimental at the moment and wanted to share some quotes that makes sense in more than one way. Love is a crazy thing and I always end up being hurt. Not this time...I will keep my head held high!

He is mi vida, mi alma, mi corazon...Regardless of who comes and goes, he's forever!!!